Adam Adryan - 4 months old.

Adam!!
You are four months old today!!!
He's grown.. All those tops that are sized at 0-3 months or newborns are meant for the dumps! Yes, he grows so fast.. Just a while back, he was just a tiny baby and look at him now.. His eyes are getting more prominent and his cheeks are... simply speechless...I used to say that he got those cheeks from Aunty!! LOL!!

He loves attention. Once I picked him up from the babysitter and I had to placed him on the sofa upon returning home. Then I started to prepare dinner as its still in the fasting month. I noticed his eyes was following every of my moves. So when he realised he was being ignored, he gave a loud sigh!! I was shocked..My son?? sighing??? Could it be? Then I turned to him and say, "what is it sayang? Mommy is busy preparing dinner.. can u wait a while more darling?" and he smile cheekily at me.. Oh... it was really a priceless moment!!

ur Happiness Adam

Adam Adryan 

You are the BEST thing that ever happen to me in my entire life. No words could describe how much I fell in love with u at the very first sight.. U really took my breath away.. Never I want you far from me.. cause I know at this stage ( one month old ), u are almost helpless.. 

However, I know one day.. or perhaps someday... when u grow up, u'll find a perfect someone who will take your breath away.. I would not see it as losing you cause nothing can erase the fact that I am your mother.. I just want you love sincerely.. whole-heartedly.. 

Your happiness place me at most ease, Adam.. 

All I want for you is Happiness.. 

Glimpse of Happiness

I could still remember..when I was five months pregnant, I always wanted my husband by my side..no one..only him!! When doctor grant me leave to stay home to rest, I wish he could be by side.. I dont know why at first.. I never want anything bad happen to him.. 

While the day passed, I busy myself with chore.. (though i'm not really a domestically abled) I would handle the laundry, cooked and clean.. and I always make sure his hot Milo and dinner is ready just in time for him when he reached home.. 

I'm not bragging about the things I did for him but I feel good when he came home and his food is served... though I am not really a good cook.. but he always appreciate my cooking.. rarely he complained about my cooking.. His smile when he greeted me at the door was something I could never forget throughout my pregnancy.. and he would say.."my baby in Rompers!" 

Though its just memories now..

I have always want him by my side before, during and after pregnancy..No one else.. its just hard to let him go even for a moment.. and I had hope that when my baby is born, he'd look just like his father.. cause I miss that smile.. a smile full of love that meant so much to me.. 

Now I realised that it was just a glimpse of happiness for me..

All those feelings were meant for something big.. something no married couple wanna go through.. 

Buat Semua Wanita

Buat Semua Wanita

Di Hati Ini

 Permata Hati Ku

  Ya Allah 
 Jika dia benar untukku, 
 Dekatkan lah hatinya dengan hati ku 


 Jika dia bukan milikku 
 Damaikan lah hatiku dengan Ketentuan Mu

Adam - 1 mOnth!!

Today Adam is fully one month old!! So far Alhamdunillah he's been growing up well.. I'm just a lil worried though. Somehow I know he misses his father.. Deep down I wish he remembers.. Deep down I wish he will drop by to see Adam!! It's ok if he doesn't pay any attention to me but as long as Adam gets his daddy's touch, I'll be very contented.. I was very tired today but I didn't lose hope.. Everytime the clock strike half past eight i'd wish the door bell goes off & it's him at the door.. Hope & faith paid off when the clock strike 9pm n the door bell went off.. I heard his voice and goodness God knows how much I missed that voice.. Our Prayers answered.. I believe Adam is as happy as I am.. I know.. I'm his mother.. Well Adam, mommy loves u & daddy loves you.. Though we are separated by distance, let's hope n pray that he shall come hack to where he should be... To Us!!

Mengharap kau kembali...

Sungguh aku rindu.. Rindu belaianmu.. 
Sungguh aku pilu.. dengan perbuatanmu..
Namun kami mengharap kau kembali disisi.. 
Disisi keluargamu.. Aku & Adam..